Where did she go I jumped and crawled Ran and fought by fire and stars But she's never there She's never there I give my all But she's never there How many bridges must cross Secret areas must I find Castles must I conquer Flagpoles must I climb I won't give up hope I will persevere I won't let her down This time I know she's near I'm almost there I'm almost there I can feel it in my hands Oh! We gotta find the weakest spot and Oh! The hardest boss we ever fought and Oh! We gotta give it all we got 'Cause this is our last life Oh no! Transforming and he's blinking faster Oh! We gotta use the mega blaster YEAH! We're gonna be nintendo masters! Mom says our time is up! But mom! Mom no! I'm almost at the last level! I don't have anymore continues I can't pause it! You can't saaaave You don't understand! This is the most important... Hey! She said we could keep playing!!! What!?!?!?!!

She always knows just what to say Never looks incomplete But he's always wrong and falling down Get up, get up, get up now No strand is ever out of place Her life his perfect dream But his used car broke reality Won't let up, let up, let up now What I wouldn't do To be just like you Free to close my eyes Gimme your freedom You do not know, I will not go Gimme your freedom Leave me alone She's Always on, every floor a stage Performing life in scenes But he has no character to break She's fed up, fed up, fed up now Followed by bright and judging lights Not safe enough to breathe But he make mistakes that no one finds Can't get up, get up, get up now What I wouldn't do, to be just like you Free to close My eyes What I wouldn't do, to be just like you Free to live my life Oh she didn't now We all want freedom We all need freedom We all got freedom She always knows just what to say

With small hands and a big heart You got me to the table then took me apart The devil had told me all good things are cursed There's no hope for redemption, your love was the first Oh no, please don't go don't leave me here alone Her belly was swollen by the end of the year She found satisfaction I only found fear Then with small feet and big eyes You stole my one love and brought my demise I only had one hope in this world and you stole her away I'm never coming home The devil was right Dies Irae Domine

Please don't give me lies, give me sugar Been about an hour, I called, I know you check that No call or a text back, wonder where your heart's been left at I regret that I cheated on you so if you get back, I'd expect that, but I respect When you deal with infidelity it's hard to connect back Still I worked hard, didn't let that keep from my part and apart from the setbacks I really thought that it was better now The shoe is on the other foot and now it's you, the one that's stepping out, I guess I used to do the letting down but now I'm feeling stupid and foolish Trying to figure how we always go through this And do you really want to find a resolution, all this mystery makes confusion Will you go or stay it's confusing, Im feeling either way I'm losing But I'd rather have your sugar to sink my sweet tooth in [chorus] You looked me in my eyes and lied I knew there'd be a day I'd find the real reason our hearts ain't align The season that your heart changed mine there's a reason our hearts can't find no love for lusting Guess I was dumb for trusting How did our love malfunction? 'Cause I gave you my all, you crushed it Tried to slow it down, you rushed it Crashed too fast in the mass destruction while trying to mask my reluctance 'Cause you had me wondering, we both had past of suffering I felt we crossed paths for something It wouldn't hurt this bad for nothing I swear I'm leaving ... nah I'm bluffing Girl we need to talk over dinner or lunch and work through this Give me truth no lies, substitutions Give me sugar, no lies or illusions Don't want this to end but I won't pretend Please don't give me lies, gimme sugar Don't want this to end, but I won't pretend If your love is real whisper in my ear, show me what you feel Oh, I can't take it anymore, girl I gotta know for sure Tell me - are you gonna stay or go?

Today I woke up and saw the world in a different light, a different plight and couldn't stand the sight of it anymore I couldn't take it anymore I just can't stand to walk down the streets we shared our thoughts on you always had your guard on that always made you tarry long You always said to carry on Your words are useless now You're becoming just like all the rest Just shut up and pack your bags for now Because you surely won't be needing the rest The funny thing I never heard a third of the time in your worry was that your cursing might force you to be in the wrong again Good thing I never heard your plan Because if you had opened your token of lovin' to your broken attempt at a notion of fixin' your emotions we'd all be dead Good thing you never showed your hand Your words are useless now You're becoming just like all the rest Just shut up and pack your bags for now Because you surely won't be needing the rest Good thing you never showed your hand They would have locked you up and thrown away the key And everything you say is poison, poison to my mind and poisoning those around with your cloister of hating And everything you do is lesions on my brain teasing every chance I've ever had and every chance I'll ever get But this is my life and my time and my place and you won't be trifling my chance to shine and face the world to overcome the fears, fears you've been piling on my world in the wake of your insane episodic wake of lying to my face oh yeah

Oh father why Oh father why Father why do you hide from me Oh father why Oh lover why Oh lover why Lover why do you lie to me Oh lover why

With each little lie you die a little more Tell yourself you're a grownup not a corporate whore But you cannot escape your identity So take action on your passion Set aside the things that are distractions You need courage more than serenity When we feel alive our hearts are beating out our chests And we won't be satisfied with survival Give us life or death Lack of vision, indecision and apathy are the fruits of your religion When you take what you love and hide it away So close your eyes and take a big breath Real life doesn't come without real death What you get for the fight is worth being brave DEAAAATTHHH

Where are you son? Where did you go? You took a different path You never came home I'd rather believe in hell Than believe in you And when you leave this world I hope you know the truth I'd rather look ahead Than be right here I didn't choose you son I chose fear I know and feel love You can't understand You call it paranoia But it's all in the plan, to let me hold your hand For all eternity Holding your hand For all eternity Where are you son? Where did you go? Take a different path Never come home Don't you ever come home

Sometimes i can feel it waiting in between my thoughts A vaguely threatening yet coming liquidation of the framework i have wrought These 23 or is it 4 years i have slowly built my Defenses to the unbroken barrage of 26 years of confusion The mental violence self inflicted is not typically Born of masochism but rather from inability To control this, control this separation of reality from Monsters hiding in my mind and feasting on my family Anxiety and paranoia are skills on my resume They visit me to help me make decisions almost every day Yet continuity has kept her distance from the fabrics edge The evidence my cashmere sanity is unraveling thread by thread But i am fine They're putting something in my pills to try to break into my brain I know that it sounds crazy please believe me, i am not insane Don't talk so loud their evil minions hide in the shadows everywhere Just because you cannot see them doesn't mean they are not there, alright?

Sometimes it feels like all these pieces break apart around me Deadlines, messages and meetings back to back I'm drowning but You always feel like coming home You seem to make sense when i don't Tired and tangled in this web of tugging string Surrounded Wondering what i'm doing starting at this screen Confounded but You are comfort in the chaos You always feel like coming home